Punchbag

Well another day and i decided to throw a pair of worn out trainers in the bin but i can't bring myself to do it. It's not that i am a hoarder it's because i think they will be sad. I cannot tell my the therapist this because he won't understand they all seem to be trainees. It is getting worse the older i get, it would be nice to talk with someone who has the same problem.

Watneys Ceam Label.

Doc wants me off diazepam and on more zombie pills but the diazepam is the only thing helping with the multiple panic attacks even then i try and become as small as i can and hide .

Yes for reasons unknown to me i tell them the truth but in a strong positive way and they obviously think i must be ok a day later i'm in the toilet quivering in fear with stomach cramps. The Mirtazapine are making me feel like a zombie.GP does nothing i'm out of choices.

I did he gave me a self referal to Mindfulness i went but he seemed confused and i ended up questioning him and basically he said he was confidant i could deal with it myself.

I have not sat on a toilet since i was a toddler because i think something awful will come up the toilet.

I also feel that inanimat objects have feelings and i cant throw them away in case it upsets them. I did have councilling some years back but the person said he was not qualified to advise me.

Been on the diazepan for more than 25 years as well as other antidepresants.

I am on Mirtazapine which help me to sleep also Diazepam that help with nervs. I s this normal or not when i walk i avoid repairs in the roads pavements and car parks as they are grave shaped i cant stop it.

Thanks i will.

Cheers.

Thanks mate i'll give it a go.

Fury is a slick boxer and he is awkward but Wilder has that punch power that is a great leveller i expect Wilder to catch fury late on and no getting up for Fury this time.

I suffer with depression don't talk about it as it seems to go quiet and someone changes the subject which makes me worse i'm on two different meds for it. Maybe there's a support group somewhere.

Can't believe this is happening.