Fuck. Reading this made me well up. I’m glad you’re doing better.
I also feel like I’m coming out the other side. Medicated to buggery like, but I no longer cry or lose my shit to the people I love the most. I’ve learnt I can’t control everything. What will be will be. As long as my kids and close family are happy, I crack on and let all the others make their own mistakes in life.